This happiness is mine

I’m 31 year old now.  When the day of my birthday, many people asked me “When will you get married ?”.  I just smile and no answer come from my mouth.  And for some people I answer “May be yes, may be no” (hahaha……… like an advertisement on TV).  But to my close friend, I answer straight forward “I won’t get married, I’m happy being like this”, I mean I’m happy being single like this.

I told to one of my friends that my ex-boy friend asked me (again) to marry me, but I (still) refuse it.  My friend said “Why ? You should accept his asking, you should take advantage on it”.

I just smiled and said nothing.  Then I think deeply….. Why people say as if they knew what the best for me, what makes me feel happy, as if they knew what I want in my life.

The one who knows what can make me happy is only me, myself.  No one knows……..

I’m happy now, indeed, and the one who knows that I feel happy is only me, myself.  No one can feel it……….

Cause this happiness is mine……….

Woman Oh woman……….

There is a praying room in my office.  It’s not a wide place, but it’s enough for us to pray, both for women & men.I find a phenomenon (a funny one I think) that happens in the praying room, and I have observed it for long time.  The phenomenon is showing that women put themselves “under” men.  This is the explanation:The room can be divided into two same wide parts, for women and men.  So each part should contain the same amount of both women & men.  It means there is the same amount of praying pads for both women and men as well.  But what happen then?  Women tend to take a small part for them to pray, and they give a bigger part to men to pray.  Woman prayers pull their praying pads to the back so they just take smaller part to pray than men.Almost everyday I re-arrange the praying pads back to the previous place, so that women’s part is wide as men’s.  But………………. It happen again and again everyday, woman prayers pull back all the praying pads.  I don’t know why it always happens. 

I just think that a lot of women put themselves “under” men, and they tend to under-estimate themselves.

Woman…. oh woman…..

  

Everything Still Remind Me of You

Two months have passed by…… but everything still remind me of you….

Nothing can stop me thinking of you, remembering everything about you, and remembering the moment when you went away forever……

I never thought that losing you will hurt me so much.

Finally I realize that I love you more than I ever thought……

(Dedicated to my beloved Mom)

Sometimes We Forget

When we think deeply about ourselves, all people had ever made mistake, all people have either negative or positive side, we ever hurt someone else and vise versa

But sometimes we forget that thing.  We often make judgement to our friend that we think he/she has done something wrong or something hurt us.  Then we give the negative predicate for him/her, without trying to find the reason why he/she did it.

But yes…. that’s our negative side ) 

So what do we have to do ?!  It’s our challenge…;)

The Difference

As long as we live in this world, we see & experience many things, many moments, & many phenomena.

We often feel that we do not like and disagree what we see.  Sometimes we try to make it fit with our paradigm, or we often make a judgement to it if we disagree with it.  We see it as something wrong, something that we have to make it right.

Something wrong…. something right…… what is that mean ?! 

We see it as something wrong if we do not agree or do not like it, and we see it as something right if we agree and like it.

So…. there’s nothing absolute in this world, it depends how we see it from different paradigm.

We have to learn accepting the difference, because today we see it as something wrong but maybe tomorrow we will love it and we will see it as the right one. 

So…… just learn to accept the difference……:)

First Posting

This is my first posting in my blog.  Actually I like to write, but I just wrote in my PC for all this time and I don’t think to make my own blog, because I do not want to share my thought, my opinion, my experience etc to someone else, I’m an introvert person.

Then my friend often suggests me to make  my own blog.  She really really often says “Why don’t you make your own blog ?  I have mine, and if you have yours then we can share ours !”  I just smiled and then said “OK, maybe someday”, always like that hahahaha……………

Then I think it’s nothing to lose for having blog and try to share my opinion.  OK, I’ll do it……….